I've realized in the last couple of weeks, that without goodbyes there would be no new hellos. For being an INFJ and an introvert at heart, it surprises me still to figure out that I cherish the new. New friendships, new places, new. It really doesn't make sense, because I hate change. How can one hate change and yet love new? I can't answer that. All I know is that it is what it is. There is a part of me that loves "home" and stability and routine and tradition. Yet, there is also a large part of me that loves adventure and discovery. I'm a conundrum.
On July 21st I made the decision to move back to Oregon. Just 6 days later I got in the car and started the 2,000 mile journey to little Gold Beach to surprise my dad for his birthday. Prior to my final decision to move, I wrestled with many things. I went on long drives and listened to podcasts and prayed and prayed. With the decision to move to Oregon also came the decision to not return to YWAM in September. Many variables and points went into this decision. In short, my heart has been longing for beloved Oregon. After traveling for the last 2.5 years, and coming back for a week here or a weekend there, I've discovered something that Oregonians have known all along. There's no place like home, especially if that home is Oregon. Oregon is so unique and the Pacific Northwest has more to offer than most of the world put together in my opinion. Okay, maybe not. But it's pretty close!
In the past few years I have called home 3 different countries, 3 states, and an overwhelming dozen addresses. I own what can only fit in my beat up '99 Toyota Avalon. It has been fantastic. I truly wouldn't change the places I've been, the people I've met, or the experiences I've shared with those people for anything. My life is so rich! Growing up in tiny towns didn't afford me the chance to experience community like I've been able to, simply due to the variety of people and backgrounds and experiences. This journey has taught me more about Jesus, more about living like Him, then I ever imagined. It's like there's an entire new dimension or color to life now. The time I've spent traveling has given me the chance to decide who I want to be and what exactly I believe. It's been full of ups and downs, but it's been authentic living.
I have missed my family and missed moments with them, that I wish I hadn't. They are a large reason I've moved back. Without my family, I would not be me. They are the basis, the foundation of who Katie is. They spent 21 years pouring into me, and now I'd like the opportunity to give back.
So, to recap - I'm back in Oregon and once I get back to the east side, my hair will finally behave for the first time in 3 years (happy happy dance!). Seriously though, thank you to everyone who has walked with me in this last season. I love you all. Here's to settling down for a while and discovering the beauty of God's country again!
-Katie Jean
