Writing has been hard since I've returned from YWAM and re-established myself, as much as I can, into this world I live in. I think about writing often. I have a whole list of blog posts to write. Yet, there has been a lacking driving force. Even my personal journaling has dropped off the edge of a huge cliff the last 9 months. It is crazy to think that a year ago, I was on the Gold Coast in Australia, with the worst sunburn of my life. It was there that I learned the truth about evangelism though and for the first time in my life understood what it means to truly love people. It seems like so long ago.
2015. A year of rest and divine grace.
It's incredible how much I need those two things more than anything in my life right now. I have been struggling and wrestling with grace for myself since my return to the States. It's a journey that scares me. It is one I am willing to pursue though. As for the rest? I am long overdue for true rest. The past two years have been physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausting for me in so many ways. They have been the worst years of my life and yet the best. Two sides to the same coin. I cling to the good memories and the friendships forged out of vulnerability and God alone.
For these reasons and more, I am leaving the Valley of the Sun. This was not a place I foresaw spending long amounts of time in when I first came here, and the time has come to leave. My journey here was one of God pushing me out the door and out of my comfort zone. It was one of immense fear and trepidation of what was to come. I should never fear or worry. He provided me with everything I needed and more. While this next adventure has more questions and unknowns, the fear is severely less. I am beyond excited to join my friend in Wisconsin. I have no idea what is in store there for me, but I know that God will see me through. He has brought me so far already. I will not doubt His goodness to me, even when I don't deserve it.
